The song swirls through the night
Spinning you into being so real

I can feel the closeness of your skin
The softness and the sweetness in the air
Just past my fingertips
Filling me with heat
Seeping into the cracks
And spilling over everywhere

I watch you move so near so far
The blue of your eyes blazing through my soul
I wish we could travel back to moments lost in time
So precious each step, each tiny breath
Each decision to jump headfirst or hold back
Timing is everything

Here I sit watching you
Just my friend
While the hairs on my neck tingle
At your every glance
And I can do nothing to breach this chasm

The kiss that dances in my mind
Will never cross your lips
Or hold you hot against my skin

The song plays over in my empty room
A whispering scream of all it was
And never will be
How did I miss so near
If only I had jumped sooner
Grasped harder, pulled deeper

In the black depths of my eyes
You saw something that made you call
You heard this song and thought of me
And so you climbed into my world
Waiting for me to take your hand
But I was too slow
Your hands are broken
The moment slipped away

And so I watch you with the eyes of a lover
And the voice of a friend
I touch you through the false veil of innocence
And feel the burning fire of desire
Sear my soul swift and deep

Yet I stay
Searching for rewind
Hoping for reprieve
The images of what will never be
Play over again and again

An echo of another world
Where I kissed you then
Before the train in the dark
And held you tight
Against my beating heart

Your sigh filling my ears
Your arms surrounding me
The train then rattling into the night
Forgotten in that moment
Grasped tight

Time surging forward
I feel your body
Your breath
Your wet mouth on mine
Whispers in the dark
You arching into me
Head thrown back
Soft skin on your neck
Your salty taste on my tongue

I wake to your smile
The deep blue of your eyes
Arms and legs entwined
Warm center of life
The world remade in our love.

These images of all we missed
Tumble out unbidden, unrequited
Painting each moment in the vivid colors
Of what it would have been
If only I had kissed you then....

But I didn't

So I sit here tortured and hopeless
Knowing what was missed
By one moment
Slipping by in the dark

And the song begins
Again and again.